New Years Resolution Fail

So I thought that the first resolution I would break would be Just Say No, but it turned out that I managed to start multitasking again without having to say yes. I really don't know what to do. I feel like I'm back in December again, but with a lot more potential for people getting hurt because of me. Maybe he was right about what he said. I'm not sure. All I know is that I really need to figure this all out before it all disappears again like it did last time. The only other thing I know is that I don't want to. Whatever happens, I hope I am forgiven, but more so, I hope I can forgive myself. But, then again, forgiveness is supposed to come when the one being forgiven will actually try not to repeat their mistakes...